"leaRnin iz n0T chilD's pLay; we cann0T LeaRn wIth0uT paIn.
-Aristotle"
Bounded by rules that's tying me here..
Suffocated by emotions that's not letting go..
Chains and chains of memories that's pulling me down..
Not letting go,
Nor turning loose..
Frustrated over my ability to pull free..
Angry over my inability to cut free of undesired ties..
When can i struggled free??
Free from this cage I've created of my own...
[[ ~lady in despair~ ]]
siqia0
nGee Ann p0ly pisCes
[[ ~LiKes~ ]]
him~ ♥
mUsic
sleePin
ch0Co
reaDin booKz!![without it, my life is a blank...]
[[ ~her WishList~ ]]
Dark hunTer's coMpanion
nDs liTe - whiTe/green-bLue
pSp
cameRa
jigsaW puzZle - wooDen
famiLy 0f 0uRan h0sT cLub >.<
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
below are a collection of post dat i've accumulates..
Date 15/9/09
another boring day in e office. nth to do, our in charge is nt in office. n e lady whom i'm assigned ton who's suppose to call didna. so i suppose dat i have nth to do. except post tis in advance. was tempted to go home early. but is like.. e big "What if" question. so ya, e rest of the guys relent to mi. which i have to say thankz to ^^
my comp make some weird sound when e charger is plug in. cant believe it. damn noisy de lor.. den it's high pitch some more *sianz look* den again, e comp's nt bad lah.. light, e batt actually last (unlike my lenovo de..) and i like e keypad =D except dat it doesnt have the window button, n i have to bring my own mouse, which is kinda noisy when i click on it. mayb will try my sis's mouse wahahha~
thinkin.. have to try to save some money for rainin day le.. thou it seem dat i might have enough for myself, i might as well give some to my parent as some token (which mom will nag abt occasionally..)
plannin to get e mrt concession next mth. it seem to be e faster way, coz if i take bus, i have to walk quite e distance from e nearest bus stop. n it's a bit ulu in e mornin. thou i haven try in e evenin yet.. but if i take train, dat means that i'll have to walk to e interchange le. which takes around 20mins bah.. is like ok lah.. juz scare rainy day onli.. guess i have to top up some money juz in case le bah.. but if i take mrt, e distance i have to walk to my company is still ok.. like 5min plus??
thinkin and speakin of books, i hope dat e books dat i crave for has reached sg shore le bah.. like in kino lah.. been waitin quite a while le.. but some things are juz worth waiting for *wink* muahahah~
been plannin to go to plaza sing some day. juz to look at some stuff, n mayb get some also.. bleh~ but have to see how 1st lor.. coz nt near also mah.. but if dat's e case, guess i have to make it tis mth le.. since i gt e bus concession, easier to travel around, which is wat i feel.
nw den i noe how tired it would be to zou bo liao =( u have 2 pretend to look busy, den u also have to make sure dat u're nt caught playin game, or messengin.. LOL
ok, chest pain *wince* suddenly de.. omg.. hope it go away soon.
by nw, e whiny sound from e charger is almost non-existent le. reason?? gotten used to it, thus it seem gone. lol
ok, realli have nth to talk abt le.. sianz..
date: 18/9/09 (Friday)
another day in e office. e difference?? i might not get to go home tis evening.. reason?? i have to help out wif some relocation thingie!!! OMG O_O till saturday morning..
is sianz de lor.. with e same hr in mac, i can get a pay higher den here lor.. [they have calculated, it's around 3 plus per hr here T.T ] but since i still have mac as a alternate money income, i should be doin ok.. juz wish dat i have a job like wat aaron used to have. e giving out of cookie and drinks on sunday. sounds good. easy also =P nw wat i have to do is juz to give myself a budget everyday bah.. as in limitin my spendin those kinda thing lor.. but hopefully should be ok *beam*
*sigh* hopefully should be able to meet up wif dear dear tml bah.. *pout* miss him a lot >.<
yosh! jia you, jia you, jia you!!
Date: 22/9/09 (tuesday)
gonna be a busy week. despite mon being a public holi, i still gotta work - mac coz got double pay, but wif e short hrs i'm workin, i wonder how much can i get...
and i think i'm goin down to do some observation 2 days in tis week. not onli that, i'm gonna attend a meetin on thurs. hope i dun do anythin smiley -.- but still uncertain abt next week, so i have no idea of wat i am goin to type in the weekly calander for my in-charge.. sianz le lor..
if every week also somethin like wat's happenin tis week, not sure i'm gonna be damn happi abt it. juz dat i noe that i'm not bored to hell *nod head*
ok, that all currently =P will update more next time bah ^^
巧 ♥ 9:45 PM
Sunday, September 13, 2009
tml it started. cant realli say it's a nightmare, juz another new journey i have to undergo. which should be quite interestin, considerin dat's it is realli a mutli-national company. where i might have to interact wif ppl from all over e world. but since i haven ask abt IBM from junqing, i can onli speculate. hopefully, i'm able to go thru tis 6 mthz without any mishap, or being fired by e company.. *nervous*
was feelin e same thing i felt mthz ago. could be coz we are nw in e same situation, except in a reverse role. baby, i miss u like crazy. n i love the time we've spend tgt. no matter where n when, it will always be part of me, part of my mental scrapebook.
my onli prayer nw?? hope dat my eyes wouldnt be puffy when i wake up tml mornin. n dat i would be able to reach early.
*deep breathe* ok, have to relax myself >.<
lisTenin - Awake (Secondhand Serenade)
you're always on my mind,
and in my heart *tight hug*
巧 ♥ 9:55 PM
Sunday, August 23, 2009
xam - on thurs final destination 4 - on thurs holi start - on thurs, after 4pm. countin down - around 3 more days, agar-ation. hopefully, i'm able to concentrate when i start memorizin bah >.< didna receive any email from francis, hopefully dat is a good sign. meanin i pass e lab test, n no need 2 go 4 e retest. wat is not good is dat he has 4gotten abt it. coz is like my cher-in-charge-of-lab put a capital R on my lab paper. n even told mi i have 2 retest. u say leh?? but thurs is xam le, dun think francis would be so cruel to call mi back to sku durin tis week, or even e week after xam bah *eye big big* nooooooooooo~ pray hard dat i did pass, who ask mi nv go count e marks b4 i hand in *smack head*
attachment's like gonna start next mth?? O_o ask 'drew abt it. whether i should quit or like juz work 1 day. wat he says make sense lah.. coz attachment job is mth pay de, mac is paid twice per mth de. so by e time i reach mid-mth arh, confirm no money lor.. so if i got mac hor, at least still got some money lah.. althou dunno 4 wat.. but havin money is better den not havin any right?? so ya, 1 day per week, unless got public holi. den jiu a bit xin ku yi dian dian er yi.. hope is able to juggle my timin n wouldnt fail tis final module >.<
got e itch 2 get some books le. like - Redemption alley by Lilith Saintcrow - The Demon's Librarian by Lilith Saintcrow - Bad Moon Rising by Sherrilyn Kenyon - 黑执事 - Midnight Secretary e hands startin to get a bit itchy liao *stare at hand* shall try 2 control myself. jia you!
i didna noe samuel is also takin ccna. until ytd O.O when i read his blog. been doin dunno wat lately, so a bit slow in being updated abt ppl's life =P sorri abt dat *bow*
anyway, dear~ happi 9th mth *muackz*
巧 ♥ 11:21 PM
Sunday, August 02, 2009
gonna be busy. mon - AR final written test. and cher nv on e ans for e cisco on9. tue - MSN final written test. got a bit of hope, provided cher nv change e qns. wed - CorCom stuff is due. thurs - i also dunno whether got anythin impt or not.. oh ya, AR case study practise. den got work somemore.. fri - ANS lab test. die liao.. hope can time to practise also..
n dat is e basic of my week. wat to do?? sems almost endin soon. n i have no idea on where i'm posted. hope it's somewhere good. if not, somewhere near i jiu happi liao..
jia you for e revision le bah, go sq go!!
i'm startin to hate sunday. n for a totally different reason.
巧 ♥ 9:22 PM
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
gotten easily tired nowadays. dun even tell mi is due to age, die die wouldnt believe o.O might be coz of recent's sleepin pattern bah.. but no leh, been sleepin kinda early.. haiz.. dunno lah.. juz hope it passes soon..
